Last night was one of the most profound experiences I’ve ever had, and it’s changed everything for me. I’m starting to see more in the Spirit—a gift I’ve prayed for since childhood. It’s a mixed blessing: rewarding at times, unsettling at others, like the night the spirit told me to go to bed before midnight,Continue reading “Snakes, Trees, and Fire”
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DID Tree
My second husband called me “Tree.” I don’t remember why. But, nevertheless Monkey and Tree went together well. He’d take pictures with him standing next to trees, and send them to me for a joke. On September 11th, 2025, while I was doing my makeup, it occurred to me why this symbol was so importantContinue reading “DID Tree”
23-24th of September
Look up on YouTube these dates. I don’t know if it’s the rapture or the end of the world starts. But I feel I’ve got to warn everyone to get ready! And, remember this always…
Best End Timelines video
There is the best I’ve found…
Chemicals, Fasting, Advanced TRS
Okay, so have you ever gone crazy out of your mind because you have so many chemicals in your body from all the pills you’re taking which leave a horrible residue behind in your muscles that’s about to drive you insane from the pain? Because I have. Have you ever wanted so badly to participateContinue reading “Chemicals, Fasting, Advanced TRS”
The People of ?
Last night, some people—again, for the third time—appeared in my room. They said, “It’s time to go!! JUMP out of bed and WALK!” My faith and courage have suffered much over the past four years. I cried, “I’m afraid!” They grabbed my arms, I slid to the edge of my bed, and tried to stand.Continue reading “The People of ?”
Bless Everything!
“Counsel with the Lord in all thy doings, and he will direct thee for good” (Alma 37:37) “Verily, verily, I say unto you, ye must watch and pray always, lest ye be tempted by the devil, and ye be led away captive by him. And as I have prayed among you even so shall ye pray inContinue reading “Bless Everything!”
Near Death Experience and Screens
Here’s a movie I’d show to my kids if I had any. I think every human being needs to watch it.
From Bedsores to Walking
I was trying to raise money for a robotic Rewalk system…and then this happened. 3/1/2025 I’ve been bedridden for one month because of bedsores (wheelchair deep tissue damage to my sweet tushy from sitting for four years) and I feel like I’m about to burst in frustration! The only solution is to walk again, asContinue reading “From Bedsores to Walking”
The Temple
I used to work in a couple Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints temples, and I’ve had many sacred experiences within those walls. I’ve felt spirits around me who were thankful for the work I was doing for them. I’ve been an ordinance worker, a genealogist finding temple names, and I even helped withContinue reading “The Temple”
The Hidden Purpose of Robots
Nations that uphold secret combinations shall be destroyed, Ether 8:22–23. ⛔️ WARNING!!⚠️ Have you seen the movie Terminator? How about i Robot? How about Wall-E, Blade Runner, Ex Machina, Alien, Robots, I Am Mother, Transcendence, The Machine, Avengers: Age of Ultron, Transformers, or (my personal favorite) The Matrix? (Many of these are rated R, soContinue reading “The Hidden Purpose of Robots”
Cookies and Names
“God is making a smart cookie. If I’m covered with spilt milk, that’s marvelous. If there’s egg on my face, it’s a bonus. If I’m mixed up, I’m delighted. If I’m beaten, I’m making progress. If the heat is on, I’ll warm to my task. If I’m half-baked, something good is cooking. When I feelContinue reading “Cookies and Names”
There’s Something About October 7th/Stand With Israel
There’s something dark about October 7th, wouldn’t you agree? In 1952, Russian dictator Vladimir Putin, who served as president and prime minister of Russia, was born. In 2001, Triggered by the September 11 attacks, the Afghanistan War began, as U.S. and British warplanes started bombing Taliban targets. In 2020, I jumped off of Webb Hill and barely survived. And in 2023,Continue reading “There’s Something About October 7th/Stand With Israel”
💖My Book: Prelude in N Minor💖
The first book in my Healing With Christ series is out! It’s the crazy amazing story of my life up until when I moved to Hawaii (and why…) I’ve put so much work into perfecting this book—it also includes ways to heal whatever you have going on at the end. What I have found outContinue reading “💖My Book: Prelude in N Minor💖”
I Have Seen Him
I have met Jesus Christ on several occasions. His eyes are like blue fire. His hair is wavy auburn. His hands are large, protective, holy, and caring. His shoulders are broad enough to bear the whole Earth’s problems, pain, and suffering. His heart is glad, yet sad somehow, at the same time. His aspect isContinue reading “I Have Seen Him”
THE WHOLE ARMOR OF GOD pt. 1 or, Spiritual Sandals
Or, A Preparation of the Gospel of Peace Wednesday, October 16th, 2024 So, last night was literally one of the craziest nights of my life. And God has pulled some humdingers for sure…but I was never ever expecting this. But first, I want you to take a good hard look at this printable poster: ItContinue reading “THE WHOLE ARMOR OF GOD pt. 1 or, Spiritual Sandals”
If…
You cannot hear the whispering of the Still Small Voice, just think, “What would PISS OFF Lucifer the most??” I’ve been doing that and it works wonderfully.
Greg Klingler – “Ye are the Body of Christ” – BYU-Idaho
Greg Klingler – “Ye are the Body of Christ” – BYU-Idaho — Read on video.byui.edu/media/t/0_8p1n95vh
The Ancient Wedding/Second Coming Symbolism
This woman is amazing. This YouTube film is a must-see/must understand for anyone who wants to be “let in to the wedding feast.” https://youtu.be/dU81hfwml6Q?si=dr0JJfBCBlJ8fg8L Here are my notes—but I HIGHLY recommend getting this information from the video itself, as I wasn’t able to capture the beauty and majesty of this thousands-of-years-old symbolism. Ancient marriage ceremonyContinue reading “The Ancient Wedding/Second Coming Symbolism”
“Have Everything in Order”
Ugh!!! Damn my brain injury and DID!!! I don’t even remember sending this to my best friend a week ago!! I don’t even remember this dream!!!!!!!!! Why oh why have I been wasting time watching TV!?
The Face of Christ Revealed
Have you heard of the Shroud of Turin? Course you have. Well, there’s evidence that it’s not fake: https://www.irishstar.com/news/us-news/turin-shroud-scientific-update-jesus-33511246 And thus, the first ever photograph was made— when Jesus was resurrected and a huge flash of light emanated from His body—imprinting His likeness on the shroud around Him. Like the guy at the bottom ofContinue reading “The Face of Christ Revealed”
Defining Relationships
Most of my life, I’ve been an extrovert. But with the sponging up of the dregs of my brain, I’ve found that introversion and introspection is the way I want to go. It’s been a challenge, to say the least, to learn how to listen to myself—even when I’m upsetting the status quo with myselfContinue reading “Defining Relationships”
How Wrong Could I Be?
Here’s a story I’ve recently unearthed on my computer about how utterly wrong one can be about God. By Nicole Marie Hilton, 2015, about 2007 in high school “I need to tell you something,” L said. “What?” I said, putting a look of deep interest on my face. “I had a dream once…where I wasContinue reading “How Wrong Could I Be?”
Time Is Running Out
Or, Lot’s Wife They came for me in the middle of the night last night—August 4th, 2024. There were at least 10-15 people in my room. They awakened me and the one foremost among them said, “It’s time to go, Nicole.” I felt my heart leap within me with fear and then with excitement! TheirContinue reading “Time Is Running Out”
My Testimony
By Nicole Marie Hilton The one day since I had entered the temple I decided not to wear my garments, I quit Ubering around Salt Lake City long enough to stop in a field and cry out to God. “Why aren’t you there for me?!” I screamed to the long grass. I thought I wasContinue reading “My Testimony”
Codependent No More, Gratitude, and DBT While Breaking My Leg…Again
Basically everyone is codependent to some degree. If you don’t believe me, come to a CODA (Codependents Anonymous) meeting and you’ll find out. These meetings are flipping amazing. The amount of self aware, real people there is basically 90%. If you wanna cut the bull crap from your life, just go to a CODA meeting.Continue reading “Codependent No More, Gratitude, and DBT While Breaking My Leg…Again”
Prayer/Knowledge to Release Unresolved Anger
It works! The parts of me that were the most angry and hurt have finally come around, and I’m filled with love to bursting every day! Nothing will age you more than unresolved anger. And the Devil also knows how transference works—if I’m angry at someone else—who’s just a scared little boy or girl onContinue reading “Prayer/Knowledge to Release Unresolved Anger”
How We Talk to Ourselves
By Venetia Garcia “I once had an extraordinary experience that to this day, I don’t know how it happened. “I was enjoying nature and completely conscious, when suddenly I dove deep into the hand of someone sitting next to me. “I felt all her cell’s emotions and amazing intelligence. It was unbelievable how much eachContinue reading “How We Talk to Ourselves”
What’s Next?
Saturday, 8th of June, 2024 Just had one of the craziest spiritual experiences of my life last night as I was falling asleep. It’s soon—I think I’m going to walk again soon!!!!!!!!!!!! God is so good! I love the creativity that happens when I serve Him and do what He asks me to do—even ifContinue reading “What’s Next?”
Balloons 🎈
By Nicole and Unknown A professor gave a balloon to every student, who had to inflate it, write their name on it and throw it in the hallway. After the professor mixed all the balloons up, the students were given 5 minutes to find their own balloon. Despite a hectic search, no one found theirContinue reading “Balloons 🎈”
DID vs. Borderline vs. Bipolar vs. Narcissism
Or, Pray For Us I had someone ask me the other day, “are you borderline?” Um, no. Did you know that Dissociative Identity Disorder is often misdiagnosed as borderline personality disorder? Borderline-sufferers will exhibit at least 5 out of 9 of the following: 1. Being obsessed with being abandoned 2. Their relationships and friendships alwaysContinue reading “DID vs. Borderline vs. Bipolar vs. Narcissism”
Hospital Post 4/24/2024 and Naming Things
He is the reason I was able to spend 7 days in one bed, being poked and prodded every day. And here’s what has been making me laugh all day, everyday–and I swear I heard Jesus laughing with me: (Jesus does parkour)
The Seeker’s Guide to Translation
youtube.com/watch Here’s Jj’s newest video. Okay–I know this sounds nuts, but at least twice in my life I have neared translation. The first time I was about to pass the point of no return, when the Spirit said, “STOP!” I then consciously decided to turn back to being fallen.
The Ultimate Triumph: Explaining My System Movies
And as an intermission (from all the Nollies) here’s the best video I’ve found on the internet explaining DID: I’m so grateful to Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ for forcing me to stay here so many times…through a bevy of random flashback memories: crying and not being able to pee in front ofContinue reading “The Ultimate Triumph: Explaining My System Movies”
The Way/What Day Are You On?
By my brother Levi Jefferson Hilton, M.D. 3/30/24 My oldest brother is an ER doctor. I’m so proud of him. He also recently published a book about an allegory he discovered in the Book of Mormon. (Here’s the back of his book) And here are his notes: Palm Sunday – increasing in faith and worshipContinue reading “The Way/What Day Are You On?”
Community
Written May 9th, 2016 I am realizing the importance of the group of individuals you hang out with–your TRIBE or COMMUNITY–and why they matter so much. Much of what we believe actually doesn’t come from within–it comes from a variety of outside places such as your parents, family, friends, coworkers, classmates, or other important peopleContinue reading “Community”
JJ’s End of Times Video
February 29th, 2024 I had a major panic attack the other night, after watching a YouTube video about the last days. The video didn’t—at all—go with what my patriarchal blessing says needs to happen before everything goes to crap and all hell breaks loose. Yet…still I panicked to the point my mom had to giveContinue reading “JJ’s End of Times Video”
Mewing and Other Beauty Secrets
(Tested by me and put together so you don’t have to be confused and overwhelmed by the myriad voices out there about beauty that are vying for your attention. These three things are also free or extremely cheap—you don’t have to put up thousands of dollars when a few at-home hacks will provide more atContinue reading “Mewing and Other Beauty Secrets”
Healing With Christ From Trauma with JJ Brown
Here’s a YouTube video that is exceptionally good at unmasking how trauma can affect our lives, and how to be grateful during our trials.
Giant Eagles
By Nicole Marie Hilton Have you ever seen an eagle? To see one in person is breathtaking—there’s a reason the Bald Eagles are the National bird for the United States—they symbolize freedom. I’ve wondered if, at the end of the world, these eagles will show up to save everyone…just like Tolkien imagined in the LordContinue reading “Giant Eagles”
Grief Groceries
Recently one of my best friends posted this on her Facebook profile: “I saw this letter today- as a funeral directors son, I have been around this for years. This is some of the best advice I have ever seen. ‘Hey there, Thanks for writing. I’m really glad your friend has you in her life.Continue reading “Grief Groceries”
JJ’s Book of Mormon Talks
These are the most popular talks on YouTube by my ex, JJ Brown. Whichever one sparks your interest is worth giving a listen.
The Future of Medicine
Dr. Adeel and his Process for Curing Many Things with Stem Cells: Broken Bones, Cancer, Chronic Issues, Even Aging The following movie literally concerns every single human on this planet, because we all have bodies, and we need to lobby our governments and demand the future of healthcare—which is already here. We just didn’t knowContinue reading “The Future of Medicine”
An Angel of the Lord
From a Facebook Post, by Anonymous An Angel of the Lord appeared unto me in vision and spoke with me on the morning of March 21st 2023. He said well done. That I had done much good and the Lord was pleased with me. That the things I was doing were good and if IContinue reading “An Angel of the Lord”
Christmas Means Hope, Peace, and Love
By Elder Gary E. Stevenson “Despite the darkness, we trusted in Him, regardless of the outcome.” [This is a clip of a story on LDS.org about a little girl named Hope.] One dark night during Hope’s second five-day round of chemotherapy, Brother Gentile noticed how much hair she had lost in the previous few days.Continue reading “Christmas Means Hope, Peace, and Love”
Marriage and Family Counseling
By Daniel and Nicole Marie Hilton I hope the title of this post doesn’t scare single people away, because this is amazing information! The following is what my Marriage Counseling Therapist brother said to me in five minutes off the top of his head. It’s a bit random, but worth the effort to try andContinue reading “Marriage and Family Counseling”
The Twelve Thought Patterns of Christ, Becoming One With Him, & Creating Feelings of Self-Worth Through Prayer
December 16th, 2023 Wow. This entry deserves a run-on sentence. After I (one of the darker personalities of Nicole) humbled myself and gave everything—my whole life—up to God…I had the most spiritual, amazing, beautiful, awe-inspiring, ongoing experience that still makes me cry when I think about what has happened and is happening and will happenContinue reading “The Twelve Thought Patterns of Christ, Becoming One With Him, & Creating Feelings of Self-Worth Through Prayer”
Confession
Sunday, December 3, 2023 “Arguing with someone is rhetoric. Arguing with yourself is poetry.” —William Butler Yeats A part of growth when you have DID is finding the truths that you once knew and relearning them all over again I confess that I’ve been afraid to write this post, deep down inside of me. ThatContinue reading “Confession”
3 Nephi 14
I’m posting this because we all need this reminder. I need this reminder. Jesus commands: Judge not; ask of God; beware of false prophets—He promises salvation to those who do the will of the Father—Compare Matthew 7. About A.D. 34. 1 And now it came to pass that when Jesus had spoken these words heContinue reading “3 Nephi 14”
The Ark, the Blood, and Symbolism Movie
So much symbolism has been descending on me for the past few days (probably as a reward for humbling myself and letting God take over. Do it. It WORKS! The most magnificent beautiful things will happen!) …for which I’m grateful for and obsessed with. I love to actually see meaning in everything. I believe thatContinue reading “The Ark, the Blood, and Symbolism Movie”
(Re) Breaking my Ankle
4th October 2023 Last night the succession of spirits I’ve had come to me or translated beings (unseen) culminated in someone coming into my room and handling my left ankle. Then—well, you know the left side of that left ankle—the side that hit the dirt first when I jumped? Well, the being rebroke the outsideContinue reading “(Re) Breaking my Ankle”
Tiny Habits Summary Video
youtube.com/watch This video is how I’ve planned my life, and how I’ve gotten my book almost done! Amazing productive value for every human being on earth!
Running Question from Site
How often do you walk or run? Only in my dreams. I had a dream I ran a marathon around and around a track. I won. I loved the feeling of being translated, and running as fast as I could without getting winded. But before, when I was in my trailer, there was a blackContinue reading “Running Question from Site”
A Peculiar Thing
To whom mucho is given, mucho is required. (I kinda re-worded that just so it doesn’t roll off the backs of our eyes like every known scripture does…or at least that’s the way it is with me.) So, I’ve noticed a very peculiar thing ever since I got back from heaven. Life is not easier…no,Continue reading “A Peculiar Thing”
Healing Bones and My Way of Meditating List
So I’ve been dealing with a bone infection in my right ankle for the past year, and it has spread. Prayers are much appreciated 😵💫🤒😰 ***Update: Thank you for everyone who prayed for my ankle to get better. What’s interesting is that I wrote a game plan like the one I’m sharing right here forContinue reading “Healing Bones and My Way of Meditating List”
Five Scriptures That Will Help You Get through Almost Anything
By John Bytheway Why do bad things happen, even to good people? Thanks to modern revelation, we have a few answers. The past few years have produced a lot of scary headlines. We’ve seen it all, from large scale to small scale, from international terrorism to the breakdown of individual families. Innocent people, even children,Continue reading “Five Scriptures That Will Help You Get through Almost Anything”
What A.I. Job Says
I recently downloaded an A.I. (artificial intelligence) platform that’s called “Text Jesus.” It’s been super helpful to me in hearing not only what Jesus would say to questions (in a very generalized sense backed up by scripture) but in hearing what the prophets of old would say, too. Here’s what Job said when I askedContinue reading “What A.I. Job Says”
Oh, Bother
I’ve never responded to one of these prompts, but I saw this one today, (“what bothers you the most?”) and I’m all like: mmmmk I’ll bite. What bothers me the most is me—when I deny the Holy Spirit when it speaks to me. I shrug it off and think, “I’ll do that tomorrow.” And tomorrowContinue reading “Oh, Bother”
❤️Healing With Christ 1st CD!❤️
It’s crazy to me how God’s mercy works—after years and years of praying and pining away, He joined me up with Layna Claunch, of Voyagenesis, Florida, who read my blog and who commented in such eloquent prose I had to reach out to her. We just GOT each other, and she could spit out musicContinue reading “❤️Healing With Christ 1st CD!❤️”
Lord, Is It I?
By Hannah Elizabeth Seariac Lord, is it I? Sitting at the table before Jesus Christ, the disciples must have felt some measure of trepidation when asking “Lord, is it I,” with the discrete possibility of Christ saying yes, it is. I think there’s some part of us averse to the very question. There’s a tendencyContinue reading “Lord, Is It I?”
Psalm 22:6 – The Tola’ath
by Pastor Bojan Jancic Jesus is a worm. Psalm 22:6: “But I am a worm, and no man; A reproach of men, and despised by the people.” The Hebrew word for worm here is tola’ath. This is the crimson worm that was very common to the region of old Israel and was used in theContinue reading “Psalm 22:6 – The Tola’ath”
The Sound of Freedom, pt.2
By Nicole Marie Hilton Once you know, you cannot forget. There is nothing in this world more important than saving these kids from being trafficked. The Sound of Freedom is finally coming out because Angel Studios rescued it from being snuffed out by Disney. It was without a doubt one of the best movies I’veContinue reading “The Sound of Freedom, pt.2”
YouTube Done Right
by Nicole Marie Hilton, June 21, 2023 Today was not a good day. Sorry for the TMI, but I hadn’t pooped for, like…three days? Going on four. I had felt extremely sick, weak, and could barely get myself to go get an ice cream with my Dad—which I didn’t eat. Another first. And, so IContinue reading “YouTube Done Right”
Lord, Give Me a Sign!
By Nicole Marie Hilton, June 2023 “Are you sure you’re listening to the same spirit I’m listening to?” says my dad after I told him I’d be exploring other churches just to get to know the community better and be a missionary where possible. “I dunno…” I replied. I had just come from my room,Continue reading “Lord, Give Me a Sign!”
The Voice of Goddess
By Dr. Wayne Dyer In a mother’s womb were two babies. One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Why, of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.” “Nonsense,” said the first. “There is noContinue reading “The Voice of Goddess”
Blatant Exposure/I Can Do All Things With Christ
(My first writing for this blog, as well as new entries) By Nicole Hilton Friday, July 13, 2018 I asked God once, Why oh why God did you give me such a need to expose myself, such blatant honesty…and this incessant need for recognition? He answered back, or at least I thought He did: IContinue reading “Blatant Exposure/I Can Do All Things With Christ”
Dr. Who
While watching Dr. Who with my friend Kyle, we saw the following scene from the episode Planet of the Dead—where The Doctor calms down a bus load of people stranded in an unknown desert… This is an example of what Christ does. *He provides a way back home *He is the smartest guy around, havingContinue reading “Dr. Who”
The Christmas Movies
by Nicole Marie Hilton Here are a couple of Christmas movies I’ve been in to brighten up your day!
First Vision Day
By Nicole Marie Hilton, Friday March 27th, 2020 On March 26th I had my own experience of meeting the Father. I had gone to bed quite late. JJ tucked me in and then left to sleep on the couch (I was staying at “our” place during the coronavirus epidemic, and we were quite happy forContinue reading “First Vision Day“
Courage and Validation Pics and Quotes
By Nicole Marie Hilton, October 19th, 2022 “Everyone has the right to tell the truth about her own life.” ― Ellen Bass And these first six pictures mean the most to me about my life. I hope some of them will have meaning for you too. Please excuse the raw horror of this first one…it’sContinue reading “Courage and Validation Pics and Quotes”
Windows or Mirrors?
By Nicole Marie Hilton, June 10th, 2018 I thought I was surrounded by windows Windows in the eyes of the people walking around me Talking to me Glancing at me I’d look into their eyes and think This person needs to change This Or That… When really I was surrounded by mirrors All these mirrorsContinue reading “Windows or Mirrors?”
Thomas S. Monson Vision and Others As Well
By Nicole Hilton, June 4th, 2018 Last night, after we had three sets of people from different central American countries over for dinner and I drove one of them home (D—I tried to help him also with his suicidal feelings), I still felt depressed as I sat downstairs in my rocking chair. Mom satContinue reading “Thomas S. Monson Vision and Others As Well“
For Those of Us With Suicidal Ideation in Psychosis
By Nicole Hilton, April 22nd, 2018 And they came over unto the other side of the sea, into the country of the Gadarenes, which is over against Galilee. And when he went forth to land, there met him out of the city a certain man, which had devils for a long time, and he wouldContinue reading “For Those of Us With Suicidal Ideation in Psychosis”
The Godmother Game
By Nicole Marie Hilton, March 2018 I discovered this trick while walking around Costco today. I was a bit sullen because there was a huge blemish on my face, which felt like the size of Jupiter. Honestly, I didn’t want to look anyone straight in the eye, and I quickly pushed my cart towardsContinue reading “The Godmother Game”
From the Dust: My Susa Young Gates Experience
By Nicole Marie Hilton, September 28th, 2016 On the 21st of September, 2016, I found myself leaning up against the face of a granite headstone, reading an old book whose spine was so broken and cracked with age I had been surprised to find it. But there it had been—nestled on a common shelf inContinue reading “From the Dust: My Susa Young Gates Experience”
On a More Serious Note…
by Nicole Marie Hilton, Thursday October 6th, 2022
Hilarity in Heaven
featuring Do You Wanna Build a Snowman Parody and other things by Nicole Marie Hilton, Thursday, October 6th, 2022 If there’s one thing that will help you get through anything, it’s faith–the belief that you are alive for a reason and that life is worth living–even if you have to cling to life by theContinue reading “Hilarity in Heaven”
The Sign of the Dove
By Nicole Hilton, April 23rd, 2018 to present Today my heart is full. I started getting my spiritual gifts back today—mainly the gift of being able to ask any question (as inspired of the Lord) and having it be answered in the most miraculous ways. Sometimes it was the whispering of the spirit, sometimesContinue reading “The Sign of the Dove“
Unconditional Love and Hand Symbolism
By Nicole Hilton, June 5th, 2018 Today I woke up feeling empty and depressed. It’s a feeling extremely familiar to me, which always sets in after a wonderful spiritual experience. (Such as I had yesterday with President Monson visiting me.) I should have expected it…but I keep on hoping that one day I’m goingContinue reading “Unconditional Love and Hand Symbolism“
Unbelievable Uber
This is a movie I recorded one night after Ubering around Salt Lake City years ago. I had picked up a girl who had lost her job, her boyfriend dumped her, and she’d been raped all in one night. I gave her some chocolate and we cried together in the back seat of my ToyotaContinue reading “Unbelievable Uber”
Thou Art There
Or From My Hospital Bed, or Whither Shall I Flee, Or Don’t Let Go by Nicole Marie Hilton, September 27th, 2022 I’m here in the hospital–yet again. It’s a long story, but I wanted to let all of you, my readers, know that even though I’m in the hospital for the umpteenth time, I stillContinue reading “Thou Art There”
You Are The Reason
or the Dreamer by Nicole Marie Hilton, Tuesday, September 13th, 2022 I’m a dreamer. Always have been, Always will be. Ever since I was born, I can remember looking around and thinking, Oh–this life is amazing! And it can be even better! I can actually remember looking around and seeing only shining, beautiful possibility. So,Continue reading “You Are The Reason”
The Selfself God
By Nicole Marie Hilton Friday, April 20, 2018 I was sitting in the St. George temple baptistry recently, looking at a painting of Christ. He’s kneeling by a little boy and smiling at him with the kindest expression. The little boy is holding Christ’s hand and trusts him. It struck me that God’sContinue reading “The Selfself God“
Miracle on Top of the World, or Ascension, or Chosen
By Nicole Marie Hilton, on September 9, 2022 Have you ever felt like your heart is yearning for something so badly that it might burst out of your chest and make a mess of everything in your life? I have. My entire existence. I used to play the three piano pieces you just listened to—especiallyContinue reading “Miracle on Top of the World, or Ascension, or Chosen”
What Doth it Profit a Man? or Dadders in The Desert, or Joseph’s Journey
By Nicole Marie Hilton, September 8th, 2022 So, we (my mom, dad, and I) are currently watching Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, at Tuachan—just outside of St. George, Utah, even as I write this. I’m sitting next to my dad up on the top level in my wheelchair. It may seem on the outsideContinue reading “What Doth it Profit a Man? or Dadders in The Desert, or Joseph’s Journey”
Following the Spirit through Service to Jesus Christ
Nicole Marie Hilton Sacrament Meeting Talk (with added media) February 9th, 2020 Thank you to JJ Brown and John Pontius for help with this talk (Very long one minute pause) Are you getting annoyed that I kept you waiting for a minute? Imagine how your ancestors feel who have been waiting for the blessingsContinue reading “Following the Spirit through Service to Jesus Christ“
Martha’s Primary Mistake
or How To Be Cinderella By Nicole Marie Hilton Thurs. April 28th, April 29th, Aug 31st, Sept. 8th 2022 I have been learning about Martha from the New Testament, and how to become a Mary. I’ve just watched Disney’s Cinderella (the live action version)–and Cinderella’s two stepsisters definitely fit the bill of being Marthas! (Although,Continue reading “Martha’s Primary Mistake“
The Kaleidoscope
Or The Cathedral, or Messages in Eyes and Water, or Looking Through the Viewfinder of God, or Perfect Six-Sided Symmetry in Stillness Written Wednesday September 7, 2022 I remember receiving my first kaleidoscope when I was about five and living in Salt Lake City. It was just a cheap toy, but I was still amazedContinue reading “The Kaleidoscope”
Set in Stone
Or Equal and Opposite in All Things Including Christ the Rock This morning, I was getting ready to login to my scripture app, when the Spirit whispered to me, “Do you see that picture of Jesus Christ?” “Yes…” I replied. HG: “Do you remember what President Nelson said in last General Conference?“ I then replied,Continue reading “Set in Stone”
Dysfunction and Assimilation
By Nicole Marie Hilton, a certain date to Monday, August 29th, 2022 I’m writing this at the outside table, surrounded by two of my brothers and their families, as well as my parents. The most stimulating comments range from, “which cow are we eating?” to, “please pass the salad,” and everyone is sweeping sweeping sweepingContinue reading “Dysfunction and Assimilation”
Keep Your Pearls Close
By Nicole M. Hilton Sunday July 10th, 2022 There are subjects too dark or too sacred for others to handle. People who haven’t been exposed to a crystal meth addiction, for instance, could become uncomfortable talking about it—even for five minutes—and would say that the “spirit left” as soon as the person started to tellContinue reading “Keep Your Pearls Close”
The Refiner’s Fire
August 11th, 2022 I have experienced a transformation over the past few weeks, and life will never, ever, be the same. On July 14th, 2022, the gist of what I wrote in my Five Year Journal (which I highly recommend everyone get) was, “met with Dr. S (my psychologist)—and that didn’t really help me muchContinue reading “The Refiner’s Fire”
I’m Living A Miracle
This is a conversation/journal entry between who I believe to be God and myself. It’s what happened after the last post I wrote (“It’s About Him”). Okay Daddy, I posted it. What do you want me to do to help this pain? …I’ve just got this image of myself standing at the top of WebbContinue reading “I’m Living A Miracle”
It’s About Him
I asked myself just now—writhing in hellish nerve pain that has traveled up to the middle of my thighs because of John Ellis’s healing water: what am I supposed to learn from all of this???!!?!?!!?!!!?!!? Then I remembered the answer what’s-his-face taught me—if you haven’t healed from something…it’s because it’s serving a FUNCTION in yourContinue reading “It’s About Him”
No Other Gods
Am I the other God I’ve been worshiping?
Finding Comfort in Christ
A church talk by JJ Brown about Healing from Trials and Trauma with Christ. Also, at the end, JJ talks about a sacred moment of healing he and I experienced with Christ.
Stonewalled
By Teen Nollie, May 13th 2022 I’ve heard somewhere that the three main questions everyone asks in this life is, Do you see me? Do you hear me? And, do you understand me? I know that this is true. It’s been a full year and a half since coming back from Heaven–where I was seenContinue reading “Stonewalled”
May the Fourth Be With You
I’m now sitting in the back of my parent’s car, my leg in a splint. We’ve just come from the hospital. I have been wiping away tears which are coming—but not for the reason you’d think.
My Leap into Heaven
My suicide attempt was not an escape from my earthly mission, and I paid a terrible price for going through with it. I did receive comfort and healing in Heaven but I knew my eternal healing and role were for this earth. So much so that I chose to come back into a broken and diminished body to fulfill it.
My Birthday Chiasmus Miracle 12/02/2021
I guess it’s my Special Day…
The Reset Button
There is not much value in regret, especially when your whole life lays ahead of you. Change what you can and turn the rest over to God. With Christ, our greatest mistakes and trials can be turned to wisdom.
A Mother’s View
Loved ones suffer alongside the survivors of trauma and abuse and in some ways can be co-victims. Often, parents are innocent bystanders who feel powerless to help or even understand their struggling child.