Martha’s Primary Mistake

or How To Be Cinderella

By Nicole Marie Hilton

Thurs. April 28th, April 29th, Aug 31st, Sept. 8th 2022

I have been learning about Martha from the New Testament, and how to become a Mary.

I’ve just watched Disney’s Cinderella (the live action version)–and Cinderella’s two stepsisters definitely fit the bill of being Marthas! (Although, they are a great exaggeration of the truth of who Martha was–a faithful follower, if but a little mislead, of Christ.)

I think we all have a little Martha inside of us, don’t you agree? President Dallin H. Oaks said, “The Lord did not go into the kitchen and tell Martha to stop cooking and come listen. Apparently he was content to let her serve him however she cared to, until she judged another person’s service… Martha’s self-importance occasioned the Lord’s rebuke, not her busyness with the meal,” from LDS General Conference, 2022.

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Like Mary and Martha, we must learn to lose ourselves in the process of serving and seek the Lord’s will.

Martha’s primary mistake on this occasion seems to have been focusing on herself—even as she was serving others. The Savior helped Martha understand that it is not enough to simply serve the Lord and our fellowman. We must learn to lose ourselves in the process of serving and seek the Lord’s will to guide our desires and motives as well as our actions (see Luke 9:24; D&C 137:9). Disciples must overcome the tendency to think first of themselves and learn to serve Heavenly Father and His children with an eye “single to [His] glory” (D&C 88:67). I recently received a blessing that said, “you must give Me the glory…otherwise you wouldn’t truly be happy…” and I couldn’t agree more–although I know that Satan will later tempt me even more with this trial.

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Later, after her brother’s death, Martha showed her focused faith by setting aside temporal concerns and immediately going out to meet the Savior when she heard He was coming–which, to me, shows the very real and promising reality of growing, learning, and becoming (see John 11:19–20).

All the Love of the World Wouldn’t Equal a Millisecond of Love from Heavenly Father

I wrote down some revelation on Thursday, April 28th and 29th, 2022, which I think is important to note here:

God: Nicole, all the love and adoration of the world for your entire life wouldn’t equal the love and adoration from me I’m sending you each and every millisecond…but you won’t feel it.

What I mean is, you aren’t committed to establishing a relationship with me so you can feel it. You have bought into what a lot of my children of your generation and younger have bought into—Satan’s lie which will lead to Satan’s life—one of a whited sepulcher.

Myself: How can I be saved now? I feel so far gone—like I’ve betrayed the Spirit so often that I’ve become numb to it. Even now all I can plan on is how to use my experiences to get gain.

God: You are not so far gone, my Daughter, Sister and Friend. Not until the final judgment. My greatest prophet Joseph Smith initially fell into this trap, too…Your 3-6-9 Journal <an idea I had in order to raise myself out of poverty and off government benefits> inspiration is a good one, but it also depends where you are coming from, and who can help you, and when. If you are coming from a place that is greedy—that is using any fame you’ve acquired just to get money…well then you are buying into what Satan said—that “you can buy anything in this world with money.” And you will be left to ‘kick against the pricks,’ so to speak. You won’t receive any help with it from Me at this time. Joseph Smith had to learn this, so don’t feel badly. Simply becoming AWARE of your subconscious tendencies and bringing them to the light will wash away any darkness you have within you. Just Notice.

Remember when I said that we know what true beauty is? The world has enough Barbies who don’t affect the world for good…what we need are true Beauties.

Whoa…that was good.

You may take all the credit for that one, if you wish. True beauty is like Aaron’s mom or Dr. G’s wife, Joan, or like your massage therapist, Tammy. Don’t you remember the lesson I’ve taught you many times before? You won’t disappear if you are UPWARD–not necessarily OUTWARD–focused, rather, you gain more of yourself back if you focus on Me and on others. You learned this lesson once before–Meeting Jesus Christ and the Universe–or with focusing on your Pineal Gland, which is the physical connection you have to the spiritual world. I’m asking you to take a leap into the dark, my Daughter. If you try to publish all your writings right now without being Spiritually Centered, your life will end in disaster. You won’t be the powerful public speaker I want, and I need you to be.

But I can’t even string two words together sometimes because of my brain injury, Dad!

Let me finish–others will be drawn to you initially, but then be turned off because people can sense radiance. But with each new word you receive from me, your radiant beauty increases. Please focus on that picture you took with my precious daughter, Athat, my Darling girl–is who you truly are and where you truly come from.

A and I, right after I got out of Pergatory–the Jail in Washington County—and was living at the homeless shelter in St. George. See previous blog post called
You must tell yourself no matter how hard it is or how hard it gets, I’m going to make it.

Published by Nicole Marie Hilton

Hi, I'm Nicole. I suffer from amnesia and multiple personalities caused by childhood trauma and a gauntlet of spiritual Satanic abuse. Professionals refer to this as Dissociative Identity Disorder and Satanic Ritual Abuse (DID/SRA). The wounds and evil programming from DID/SRA create a continuing cycle of spiritual, emotional, mental, and social destruction for the victim and their loved ones. Most professional therapists misdiagnose or misunderstand it and do more harm than good. Healing requires plunging the very depths of Christ's atonement for the victims and their loved ones. The process exposes Satan's methods and Christ's power, and this knowledge is essential to anyone seeking to ascend above this mortality. This is the story of my wounding and my ongoing healing with my Savior Jesus Christ.

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