The Kaleidoscope

Or The Cathedral, or Messages in Eyes and Water, or Looking Through the Viewfinder of God, or Perfect Six-Sided Symmetry in Stillness

Written Wednesday September 7, 2022

Looking up at the roof of a favorite cathedral, of mine, whose name skips my memory… also see The amazing kaleidoscopic world of Gothic cathedral ceilings online article

I remember receiving my first kaleidoscope when I was about five and living in Salt Lake City. It was just a cheap toy, but I was still amazed whenever I looked from the outside—which contained seemingly random pieces of beads and tinsel—to looking through the eyepiece and seeing everything in perfect 6-point symmetry.

Like the child that I was, though, I left it outside one day in what we kids called The Cave—which was actually a long row of blackberry bushes which arched overhead, connecting with the neighbor’s fence, forming a sort of tunnel in which a child could walk.

One day, I realized I’d left it in The Cave, and running outside, I found it all dirty and mud-soaked. I tried to clean it up as best as I could, but when I looked through the eyepiece, I was shocked to find ants crawling around inside!

I screamed and dropped it…then (like the girl I am)…I ran inside crying!

However, looking back at what I had seen, there was a kind of macabre beauty in the vision of the ants crawling around in their symmetric dance amid all of the colorful beads and tinsel.

Later in my life, I made silver kaleidoscope necklaces for one of my best friends we’ll from now on call Mellie (short for Mellifluous) and I.

After my Leap into Heaven, when I was moved into my new room on the main floor of our house (which was funded generously by many of you reading this), I bought this beautiful silver and white kaleidoscope called the Color Spirit Kaleido.

and, in a stroke of inspiration, I put these stickers all over it:

The Tenet-like Flow of Time of the Kaleidoscope of Life

I knew then on that day, what I know now: that when you look through the Viewfinder, you realize that all is as it should be.

Christ’s viewpoint is a world of wonder
The snapshot I just took

I think life is a lot like that. Consider the girl who just lost her boyfriend…or who cannot decide what to do with her life or even what—if anything—to eat for breakfast…

Or the friend who doesn’t return the favor, no matter how much she preaches of kindness…

Or the woman who is overwhelmed with children and responsibilities, managing her life seemingly all by herself…

Or the child who has been misunderstood, and even abused at the hands of those who should have been her caregivers.

Or the elderly couple, just waiting to die…

All of these messages of despair can be found by looking at the outside of the muddy Kaleidoscope…but yet hope can be found by looking through the Viewfinder of God.

Considering this kaleidoscopic view of life…if we do not have the faith to trust God…that through His power and glory, everything will be made right in the end…well, then just trust someone who does have the faith. That’s the biggest and most powerful lesson I learned from my beloved now-ex, JJ Brown.

This is what Elder Patrick Kearon said in the last General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints:

He Is Risen With Healing in His Wings

This message—that everything can, indeed, be made perfect in Christ—is also found in water—especially Snow, I’ve found.

Frozen water before prayer, then the Crystal-like six pointed snowflake after prayer

Now, I think we should consider the following scripture, 1 Nephi 19:23, where Nephi says that we should liken all scripture unto ourselves, that they might be for our profit and learning.

There are numerous lessons to be learned here. I think one is that that all things denote that God is. All things can be considered scripture, if we look through God’s eyes.

In this scene, Superman has found truth by being inside what looks like a crystal formation—or his Fortress of Solitude

I know that another lesson water and kaleidoscopes can teach us is that not only God exists, but He is constantly expanding, as well as contracting—just like the Universe—just like the Golden Kaleidoscope my beautiful friend bought me all the way from Israel, for Christmas. This one was different from all the others, however, because the beads were fixed in glass, yet turned on two opposing dials—creating a new dimension which was collapsing and expanding at the same time.

(It’s not the best video, but it’ll have to do for now)

Now let’s consider the following images and videos, which signify that there must be opposition in all things—even good things—just as there must, indeed, be a Mother in Heaven who looks after us.

Here, Christ not only walks on water, but goes underneath it in order to rescue a drowning girl.
Along the same theme that all things denote that there is a God, Wesley kisses his Princess Bride, who wears a kaleidoscopic, or ice-like Crystal crown
YouTube Video “A Kissing Book” — The Princess Bride (High Quality)
Also consider how the Chakras, or energy centers of the body, look like a steady progression of kaleidoscopes—from the root and most simplistic chakra, to the crown and most complex chakra.

In this iconic scene from the show The Chosen, Jesus Christ explains that some things we cannot explain with our minds, but must, rather, be felt with the heart.

YouTube Video The Chosen scene: John 3:16. Also see the Heartmath device.
These scene from the Chosen means so much to me. I know that God has healed me—I AM already healed as Elder Kearon said—even though I cannot walk…I am healed in that my knowledge has been made perfect just like the six pointed snowflake ❄️: I know now that everything is as it should be.

Drinking the Kaleidoscopic Kool-aide of Christ means absolute surrender. It means first having the faith that life may look hectic and weird on the outside, but, if we have the patience to look through the eyes of God, or at least knowing that that eyepiece exists even if we cannot find it at the moment, that it’s actually all in perfect symmetry.

Consider now this message: that faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the Power of God. See my blog post called Meeting Jesus Christ and the Universe
Now consider newly freed Elsa, riding a crystal horse, who has embraced the Kaleidoscopic Chaos of the Cosmos and who has conquered all of the elements
Snow looks messy, and it gets everywhere and is sometimes rather uncomfortable—especially without protection—but if you look closer you’ll find that all is in perfect accordance with God.
This photo holds so much meaning—if we are to truly heal, we must learn how to be still—just like frozen water creates beautiful snowflakes—and be at peace.
Elder Gong relates how a Cathedral’s stain glass tells the stories of Adam and Eve, the Good Samaritan, and the Second Coming of Christ, and how each relates our rescue from our life’s travails.
The Light of Winter is the Poetry of Patience
“In this mortality, we may lose or wait for some things for a time, but in the end we will find what matters most. That is His promise.” —Gerrit W. Gong
I may be weak, I may be a complete mess, but I do have a message. I’m not afraid to share it anymore.

Even if I forget things…I’ve learned to surrender to this message: everything is as it should be.

I randomly found this picture just now on my phone—which is a treat that looks like a kaleidoscope

Soon we can grow into a sure knowledge that the path we trod—though seemingly messy and chaotic—is as it should be. Because if we look closer at the Water of Life, everything and anything combines into perfect symmetry.

And here is the fabled “vehicle,” which Elijah took to heaven—a Merkabah in Perfect Symmetry in Stillness—which is also six points (in 2D)…just like a snowflake—however, we can also see that it’s eight points in 3D

And now I will end with this video—which details how we can all be of Christ, or the Crystal—and once we realize this, we will naturally want to rescue all of His children. I know that we each must learn what the Merkabah is, and how to use it, in order to fulfill our future missions.

Lauren Daigle’s music, Rescue, sung by my favorite voices in the world. Consider donating just one dollar to them at

Published by Nicole Marie Hilton

Hi, I'm Nicole. I suffer from amnesia and multiple personalities caused by childhood trauma and a gauntlet of spiritual Satanic abuse. Professionals refer to this as Dissociative Identity Disorder and Satanic Ritual Abuse (DID/SRA). The wounds and evil programming from DID/SRA create a continuing cycle of spiritual, emotional, mental, and social destruction for the victim and their loved ones. Most professional therapists misdiagnose or misunderstand it and do more harm than good. Healing requires plunging the very depths of Christ's atonement for the victims and their loved ones. The process exposes Satan's methods and Christ's power, and this knowledge is essential to anyone seeking to ascend above this mortality. This is the story of my wounding and my ongoing healing with my Savior Jesus Christ.

9 thoughts on “The Kaleidoscope

  1. I am happy that I am getting to know you. I loved this. My words get stuck in my head and can’t find a way out and you do that for me. Thank you Nicole.

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