It works!
The parts of me that were the most angry and hurt have finally come around, and I’m filled with love to bursting every day!
Nothing will age you more than unresolved anger. And the Devil also knows how transference works—if I’m angry at someone else—who’s just a scared little boy or girl on the inside if they have hurt me and don’t realize it—I’ll be angry at God and my future spouse and myself and friends. It will destroy all my relationships.
I’ll have no emotional energy for other people because all my emotional energy goes towards nursing that anger…and all my relationships have been affected and cut off.
It’s also going to cut off my spiritual connection to God.
The Holy Spirit’s flowers—the joy, peace, kindness, charity, self control, gentleness—will be choked out by the weeds of resentment.
This isn’t dismissing it at all—this is giving it to God because it’s too heavy, and He knows what we don’t, and sees what we can’t.
It’s simply a willingness to let go of my white-knuckled grip on my ego, anger, and resentment. (Look up Tapping for Anger on YouTube.)
Think of Stephan—he said, “do not hold this against them, Father, receive my soul.” AS HE WAS BEING STONED!
Basically, don’t stand in the way of God. God will dole out the punishments and make everything right.
Do I actually call myself a Christian, yet have the gall to hold onto resentment and bitterness? That’s following the Devil and professing to be of God but not knowing Him!! Say, “I don’t want what happened to me then to define me now! I’m not going to pretend that it didn’t happen, I’m not going to pretend like it’s not a big deal. I’m saying that it’s such a big deal, God, You take care of it because I can’t.”
Every day release it over and over—be mindful of your thoughts. Because on the other side of it is something worth fighting for. There’s no other way to get to beautiful relationships than through Grace and undeserved forgiveness.
Think of Cinderella. You’ve seen glimpses of yourself with your heart at peace and joy. On the other side is freedom and a good night’s sleep. If He did it for us, we can do it for others.
I said to myself, “Remember that one girl from high school who seemed like she had it all? My resentment came from deep down thinking that she was thinking that she was better than me. It doesn’t matter if she was actually thinking that—all that matters is my reaction. That’s my purview. I shall put her, and put everyone else, in Gods hands.
“Father, today take back the ground that the enemy has claimed. Father, take all the bitterness away from my heart. Help me to forgive as the righteous Lamanites did. God, don’t let anger and bitterness become who I am. I’m sorry for how my anger, bitterness, and resentment has caused You grief and pain. I ask You now to reclaim the part of my heart that has become dead and hard and bring it to life again. I release my bitterness to You, and I’ll do it again tomorrow.”
I know that my enemy will try to reestablish his foothold in my heart, and remind me of the pain and the hurt… and when that happens I’ll pray, “please help me to remember that I don’t have to carry that pain anymore. It belongs to You now: I’ve released it, I’ve trusted You with it, and I’ve placed it in Your nail pierced hands. Help me as I grab ahold of Your Grace and peace, freedom, and love.”
Healing with Christ 