Nicole Marie Hilton

The Darkest of the Dark

I experienced that which awaits those facing utter damnation. It was bleaker than the worst trauma I’ve experienced in spirit or in body.

A Tragedy of Errors: A Schizophrenic Drama

For those of us finding ourselves neck deep in dark programming, it takes a miracle to escape with our lives. I feel for my poor, worn-out guardian angels who have gotten me safely onto the path of healing in spite of myself.

Freedom in the Fishbowl, Pt 3

I heard two men outside of the padded cell. One fiddled with some keys, the lock clicked, and the large metal door swung open.

The Personality of Christ, Pt 2

But always in the wings is Jesus Christ waiting for us to express our faith and personal effort.

The Abrahamic Trial: Purgatory, Pt 1

When nothing seems further out of reach than God, that can be when we truly find Him.

Lessons From My Thumb

Opposition. Knowing we came to earth to experience it doesn’t provide much solace when we’re confronting it.

God Loves Broken Things, Pt 3

We each chose to follow Mother Eve into Satan’s fallen, painful world. We knew for a time we would forget our true selves and be captive to pain and possible abuse. Why would we chose this? Why would God allow it?

God Loves Broken Things, Pt 2

In our extremes we are often in a better position to give God our full focus and attention. The combination of being alert and humble allows Him to upgrade our lives and rewrite our truths if we will permit it.

God Loves Broken Things, Pt 1

As the dark side abuses its victims, it also teaches them to harm and abuse themselves. It then rewards self-harm with mockery and shaming. At a certain point a perpetrator is no longer required, because the victim will self-perpetuate the abuse cycle with self-harm.

Joy in the Darkness

Going into your school years as a trauma victim can make you feel like raw meat thrown into a lion’s den. It strongly reinforced my programming that I was broken and alone.