Nicole Marie Hilton

The Kaleidoscope

Or The Cathedral, or Messages in Eyes and Water, or Looking Through the Viewfinder of God, or Perfect Six-Sided Symmetry in Stillness Written Wednesday September 7, 2022 I remember receiving my first kaleidoscope when I was about five and living in Salt Lake City. It was just a cheap toy, but I was still amazedContinue reading “The Kaleidoscope”

Set in Stone

Or Equal and Opposite in All Things Including Christ the Rock This morning, I was getting ready to login to my scripture app, when the Spirit whispered to me, “Do you see that picture of Jesus Christ?” “Yes…” I replied. HG: “Do you remember what President Nelson said in last General Conference?“ I then replied,Continue reading “Set in Stone”

Dysfunction and Assimilation

By Nicole Marie Hilton, a certain date to Monday, August 29th, 2022 I’m writing this at the outside table, surrounded by two of my brothers and their families, as well as my parents. The most stimulating comments range from, “which cow are we eating?” to, “please pass the salad,” and everyone is sweeping sweeping sweepingContinue reading “Dysfunction and Assimilation”

Joan of Arc pt. 1: The Refiner’s Fire

August 11th, 2022 I have experienced a transformation over the past few weeks, and life will never, ever, be the same. On July 14th, 2022, the gist of what I wrote in my Five Year Journal (which I highly recommend everyone get) was, “met with Dr. S (my psychologist)—and that didn’t really help me muchContinue reading “Joan of Arc pt. 1: The Refiner’s Fire”

Keep Your Pearls Close

By Nicole M. Hilton Sunday July 10th, 2022 There are subjects too dark or too sacred for others to handle. People who haven’t been exposed to a crystal meth addiction, for instance, would be uncomfortable talking about it—even for five minutes—and would say that the “spirit left” as soon as the person started to tellContinue reading “Keep Your Pearls Close”

I’m Living A Miracle

This is a conversation/journal entry between who I believe to be God and myself. It’s what happened after the last post I wrote (“It’s About Him”). Okay Daddy, I posted it. What do you want me to do to help this pain? …I’ve just got this image of myself standing at the top of WebbContinue reading “I’m Living A Miracle”

It’s About Him

I asked myself just now—writhing in hellish nerve pain that has traveled up to the middle of my thighs because of John Ellis’s healing water: what am I supposed to learn from all of this???!!?!?!!?!!!?!!? Then I remembered the answer what’s-his-face taught me—if you haven’t healed from something…it’s because it’s serving a FUNCTION in yourContinue reading “It’s About Him”

DID, Narcissism, and Jesus Christ

Wednesday, June 8th , 2022 by Nicole Marie Hilton Narcissistic personality disorder, or NPD, is a complex personality disorder that’s often misunderstood. Narcissism is defined by the Oxford Dictionary as an excessive interest in or admiration of oneself and/or one’s physical appearance. On PsychCentral, it says that a clinician may diagnose narcissistic personalityContinue reading “DID, Narcissism, and Jesus Christ”

No Other Gods

Am I the other God I’ve been worshiping?

Finding Comfort in Christ

A church talk by JJ Brown about Healing from Trials and Trauma with Christ. Also, at the end, JJ talks about a sacred moment of healing he and I experienced with Christ.